Unfeeling Psalms

I bowed my head and struggled

To recite the words I knew—

Each phrase and prayer embedded deep,

Was lost, from whisper—flew

 

I begged to feel the depth of heart

That once held high my soul—

Each reference—gone, and meaning—waned,

My spirit, darkest coal.

 

I could not hear the calming voice

Of Father, Spirit, Son—

Only the chaos in my mind

And fear resounding, “RUN!”

 

The letters—red—I could not feel,

The songs were voiceless beats—

Where once my joy exalted praise,

My music all but ceased.

 

I cried out from an empty grave,

“God save this wretched frame!”

Yet not a word of tender care

Would even call my name.

 

What sin is here that holds You far?

What unseen wall was built?

What careless action, word, or thought

Will stop this world on tilt?

 

Bring back the comfort—heart in love

That once embraced each day—

Bring back the melody of Psalms

That paced my broken way.

 

Bring near the Spirit of all Grace

And heal prodigal son—

Remind me of the life I lived

Before this web was spun.

 

Don’t leave me now lost in my tears—

I cannot walk alone.

Restore me to the words I knew

When verses led me home.

© 12/20/2020 Cassie N. Lung

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